No matter how much you think it through, no matter how many valid reasons you can come up with for closing that door and turning away….nothing can prepare you for the absolute pain you will feel. It is an emptiness, and suddenly there is a hole where your dreams once lived.
Making the decision to abandon a lifelong aspiration of crawling to the tops of the Hollywood elite was not easy. I began acting at the tender age of five. It was my first and longest lasting love affair. I moved out to Los Angeles following college and set myself on the path to stardom. But that path is long and lonely, and sometimes even eating becomes a challenge.
Five years later, I have an amazing fiancé I cannot live without, and new smaller dreams that seemed to get in the way of the larger one I had always sought. I am no longer content living in relative destitution, but I also don’t feel that my small dreams of getting married, owning a home and starting a family would be enough to sustain this dreamer’s thirst.
So, I bore a new dream. A larger dream, though maybe not so large as the first one. I want to see the world. All of it. Not just the one small corner of it that I have carved out for myself and my family….but the whole wide entirety of the Earth.
I am not satisfied in a typical work setting, but finding a job that I can do anywhere, while making enough money to support these grandiose dreams of travel, is sure to prove difficult. This is my journey. My path to a new dream.
I need to find that perfect do anywhere job, build a savings account, and make a plan. I will try new web based jobs and freelance work, and talk about the scams that are out there as well. I may fail, but I am sure going to try. Oh, and I’ll be getting married as well. I am going to blog the entire experience of my new existence. I hope you will come on this journey with me as I find my way along the path to becoming a digital nomad.